A Letter to Myself

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I got back from a week of backpacking at 4 am to log on to DA and find that this deviation had gotten a DD. I cried it was so unexpected and awesome. Thank you so much for all of your heart warming comments and support! I cannot put into words how much your support means to me. Thank you so, so very much! I love you all

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I wasn't sure what category to put this in :/

This is my entry for the "Letters to Myself" Contest: [link]

This letter is addressed to my past and future self from my present self ...

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"Dear Breanna,"
- note the baby picture, yes that is me.

"You are amazing. You dance across home videos, made long ago. You are creative, gorgeous, and fun."
- We've recently been watching home videos. It's funny. You never realize how cute you are when you're that age. Here I am addressing my younger self. I wish that I had stayed creative and fun. I wish I had known that I was gorgeous. Then maybe I wouldn't have fallen into my anxiety and eating disorder when I was 12.

"BUT, you've fallen."
- Here I am referring to when I fell into my eating disorder habits. It is has been a struggle every day of my life since then.

"Por Favor (please). Don't let this monster that consumes me consume you. Get help. It is a dark place, full of anxiety."
- I am warning my younger self about the dangers of the eating disorder and how I am still consumed with it even though it is not as much as a struggle in my life as it used to be.

"But I'll look for the simple joys in life - like art and running. Please be strong, free, and just be yourself."
- Here I am talking to my future self, reminding myself that I need to keep my chin up and look for the positives in life, instead of easily sliding back into that dark place.

"Live a life that is worth living."
- A reminder to my past, present and future why I am on this planet.

- The following picture is me with my teddy bear, "Super Bear." I've had him since I was born. He's super, and he reminds me to be super.

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This letter is simple, but that is all I need to keep life's simple truths in the fore front of my mind.

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This is a composite of 40 pictures that I took. I actually took 200 something pictures with the intention to make this into a stop animation, but I ended up not having enough time to complete the video before I head back up to school. To see the complete set up, you can view it here: [link]
To understand eating disorders further, you can read my other lit about it here: [link] or visit [link]

Please enjoy and feel free to comment.